Grief

 

You are here, but you are not.

You're gone, expired.

We're far apart.

But somehow you're pulling my soul.

Your memory's speaking to my heart.

Every time I try to ignore,

every time I try to escape,

I'm filled with your voice once again.

My body wants to recreate.

My tears of grief endlessly fall

as I see glimpses in the mirror,

but that, you are not anymore.

Where have you gone?

I can't endure

these questions racing through my mind.

I can't shake your face from my dreams.

I can't untangle. I'm entwined

with the concept of you.

Why, oh, why?

I don't know what's happened to me.

I no longer know my own head.

Maybe I've simply gone crazy.

I love you so, but you are dead


Originally written in 2004, age 18


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