Fading Away

 

Everything is diminishing.

I am fading

in this life.

I am fading,

drowning in strife.


My C-spine is slowly collapsing.

No help is on the way.

The only help can come with means

that I don't have, so there's no way,

no way out of my weakening body

as I struggle through each day.


Giving up being on the modeling roster

and crying all the way,

through every word I type on the page,

"I can't. I'm sorry," I say.


I can't have a life this way,

giving up what I love

with no way to be paid.


How can I sustain

and fight this pain?

There's no way.

I'm fading away. 


2021



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